Reputation 
Just curious, sit there and think...what would others say about your reputation? 
Myself? I'm sure I would get a lot of different answers. Good and bad ones. Why is that? 
Well I have sat and thought about this for quite some time. I even awoke last night at 2am because I was thinking about it so much. I have a feeling I have made a terrible name for myself but at the same time a good name for myself. 
Some would say that I'm a "playa", some would say that I'm a "nice guy", some would say that I'm a "dick head", and some would say that I'm "shy". Whomever comes up with shy, is on something. 
To really understand why people look at me this way I had to look at those that think that way about me and see what type of person they were and what our "relationship/friendship" is like. 
Sure in high school and most of college I was a womanizer. Went from girl to girl to girl as if it was going out of style. Why? Well, I had a huge fear of rejection from early high school and before. So I figured that if I just got out of it within a month, no one gets hurts. No attatchments, etc etc...I WAS WRONG. So all those girls that I still sorta whatever talk to...have a terrible image of me. 
Many that don't know me, maybe have just seen me around or have just had quick small talk with, most likely assume I'm a complete asshole. Why? Because I don't just open up completely to just anyone. I don't always kiss ass when I don't know you. I'm more of a positive guy than most think...but I still keep my distance when I'm talking to someone that I don't really know. So those people...assume I'm a dick head. 
Then there's the folks that have seen the real me, see what type of guy I am, and actually UNDERSTAND me...those folks tend to say that I'm nice guy. Why? Because they, for one, are my friends, I trust them and respect them. It's simple. I get respect, I give respect. 
I have done some ridiculously stupid things in my time, believe me. I have fucked over girls (I'm not going to lie) and I have turned down girls for no TRUE reason. Now I'm sure you're thinking, great...I'm either A) one of those or B) going to be one of those...NOT TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
I was merely stating that in my PAST I had done such things. I'm sorry if I have an opinion or actually think about certain situations...I NEVER mean to purposely offend anyone, purposely hurt anyone, or be condescending. Many times I don't know how to say things well so I end up making myself look like a complete fool. I never mean any harm to anyone personally, unless you disrespect me, I have no reason nor do I ever mean to sound like I have one...to hurt anyone mentally or emotionally. I just don't know how to word what I want to say sometimes. 
So my reputation to this day will be all over the place, I like to think I'm a nice guy, I care about everyone, I always mean well, and I do the best that I can to remain a positive individual...just sometimes I don't know how to say things. I am BY NO MEANS, who I used to be...