This Could Be My Last Goodbye... 
You know, I'm starting to get sick and tired of mixed emotions happening within' the span of 24 hours. Happy, sad, scared, safe, nervous, confident...HOT COLD HOT COLD HOT COLD!!!! It's rather annoying I must say. 
How somethings work out in this world I may never understand, and from time to time...I prefer NOT to understand. There are too many ups and downs in this world (not happening between the sheets) that make life harder than it truly has to be. Decisions having to be made where SOMEONE will get hurt...and that's a promise. No one ever likes it when they are the one hurt, but enjoy when they are the one benefiting. Tuesday could one of the worst days of my life, but for right now...it's only Monday. What I'm not prepared for is the outcome of what will happen to me on Tuesday night...I will either be the happiest man on this planet...or have heart broken YET AGAIN... 
It's just too easy. I almost wish I was a vampire, FOR THE ONLY FACT, that they have that extra bone structure protecting their heart. Maybe then I might be able to have confidence stay with me longer. If my heart is broken again...I will not...have any confidence left in my body. I will most likely become...just, a drummer.